Holy Eff

1. Frankie
2. Vernon
3. Luke
4. Cody

1. Frankie
So... we broke up. And it hurts really bad. Because I didn't do anything wrong. I think he was just looking for an excuse to stop talking to me for a while.
"I love you. Don't you dare forget that."
What the hell?!?! If you really loved me, you wouldn't have done this to me.
I'm just starting to be hurt my this. And it was a few weeks ago. I cannot believe I let myself fall in love with you. You didn't even talk to me on our one month. UGH! I hate you sometimes.... Sigh. I hate myself for knowing that's not true at all.

2. Vernon
I love you so very much. Why don't you ever let me all the way in? I don't understand. You only ever decide to like me if I'm taken. But you know me better than anyone, even Luke. Most of my best memories are with you. I've known you for three years now. And I've liked you since the second I saw you. I remember being sad when you left for Atlanta. I remember it being winter and I would have to hug you to stay warm under your jacket. I remember one of the last days of school and I saw you and flipped my shit and Ms Daly gave me this 'fdw' look. You smiled at me in shock. I remember Homecoming of 2009 and slow dancing with you. I remember Pearle's party. Cute little kisses. And hugging. And when you asked me out. Your eyes lit up. I was on cloud nine. I'm different now. But I know you even better now. I think we could be amazing together if you'd just let me show you. You speak as though you'd want to be with me in the future... Just not now. What am I supposed to do until then? I feel so safe when I'm with you. Like when we were sitting on Nancy's couch and we would awkwardly cuddle. Or at my birthday party. Just holding hands with you makes me feel safe. Nothing compares to it. And I know you don't feel the same way. But it doesn't make me change my mind about you. I will never feel this way about anyone else. We have conversations about soul mates. I know that you're mine. Realize that I'm yours.

3. Luke
You KISSED me. And I do love you. You are my best friend in the entire world (cept Pearle and Josh). But God, Luke, I don't want to be with you. When we kissed I did feel something... And then all I could think about was Vernon. I'm a terrible person. You fucked up any chance you had when you got back together with Ashley.

4. Cody
We spent almost every day together and we grew apart. We almost dated. Then you called it all off because of Jess and Luke. Then when you see me, you get this amazed look on your face and you call me gorgeous. But you never show any desire to be around me. I know you miss Kelsey more than me. And it makes sense. It just sucks because of how much I still like you. Kelsey loves you too. And we will always be defending you and be overprotective. But I care about you a lot. And this whole unrequited love-like-whatever thing I have for you SUCKS.


I'n all:
Frankie, you broke my heart.
Vernon, I love you.
Luke, you're my friend and we should leave it at that.
Cody, I miss you.