Eat Pray Love

Today has been the best day I've had with my mother in a long time. She took us out to lunch and we went to go see Eat Pray Love.
I love this movie.
This woman went through a painful divorce and got in a relationship with a local actor. She took a year off and went to Italy, India, and Bali.
I know that it was just a movie, but I can't help but want to go through the same transformation. She was heartbroken and hurt and caught up in the commercial lifestyle of us Americans. She ended up a strong woman who fell in love with this Brazilian man. But the fact that she meditated and had a new found 'family' made her strong and able to love someone again. She forgave herself.
I've decided to take up meditation. I think that being more self-aware is a step in the right direction... Whatever direction that is. Am I too young to be in a slump? My life lacks all form of ambition. I find myself getting caught up in the most trivial and irrelevant issues. Granted, it is common amongst my age group, but I've always been more mature than the average person my age. I want to change. There are two ways my life could go. I want to see the world. I want to be a writer and move all around meeting fantastic people and learning more and more about myself every day. I want to be an inspiration to others and myself. I want to be this incredibly intelligent, strong, independent woman who and conquer anything life sends her way. The other option is to fall in love and have a cute little family. I could become a teacher and live in Massachusetts after going to college in Salem. I could have multiple children and be normal and happy with my quaint little family and lifestyle. But I feel that the latter option would be a waste of potential. I've always been told that I'm a bright girl and that I have a large amount of potential. If I had drive to accomplish something, I could.
Example- Getting a B on my honors biology final or writing a poem that got published in a book. (Both of which I succeeded in when I put my heart into it.) I have a drive to see the world. I have a drive to learn about foreign culture and bring awareness to the ignorant people of the world. I want to change the lives of millions. But.... How exactly do I go about doing that??
J.K Rowling is a large role model of mine. She changed the lives of many by her fictional writing. Even though it wasn't a profound change, she changed the media and the world of fantasy fiction forever.
God/Goddess give me a sign! Tell me what to do. I want to be an influential person. I want to be a strong, intellectual person without being pretentious and obnoxious. I will eventually want to find love. But i don't want to make mistakes that will ruin my top priorities.