Session 4

1. The day I saw you after a while.
2. The track meet
3. Walking me to Kelsey's
4. Ashley's birthday party
5. I told you that I liked you

1. I was at my house after school on a Friday and my aunt Suzi was watching me. You and Ricky came up to my house to ask where Kelsey lived. I recognized you right away and my heart stopped. I walked you two to Kelsey's house and then hugged you as I went home. It took all of my strength to tear myself away from you.

2. I saw you by the entrance to the track. I was sitting in the bleachers and then walked over to you. I hugged out and you walked back to the bleachers with me. You laid your head on my lap and we talked the whole time. I was holding Vernon's hand. He apologized to me. I wish he would have gone away. We just talked. Just like old times. We joked around. I flirted, You called me skinny and were pretty much feeling me up. You even blushed. I had never seen you do that before. I played with your hair and you didn't yell at me. It was perfection.

3. We were at Andrew's house and it was really late. Like... around midnight. Kelsey was mad at Kris and she wanted to walk home. I didn't want to walk alone through downtown with Emily and her so you walked with us. I held your hand the whole time and even put my arm around your waist. You did the same. It just felt right. Then that random drunk dude was like... trying to talk to us and I pulled you away so hard that I left a scar on your hand from my ring. It was a funny night. You knew you had to walk back alone but you walked with me anyways. Once again, leaving felt like leaving a bit of my soul behind.

4. I knew you would be there but my heart still skipped a beat when you walked in. That was the first time I was ever jealous of Ashley. I thought it was funny that even though it was her birthday party and she is your girlfriend, you talked to me a lot of the time. It was great.

5. So... yesterday. You commented on my status earlier in the week and asked if it was about you. "You don't even notice". I told you that you were right and I'm not quite sure what you felt. Then I posted "I'll never let this go. But I can't find the words to tell you." You asked me what I wanted to tell you.

"Well I have liked you ever since I was a little kid. And when you told me that you liked me the first time, I was super happy. And I seriously regret not going out with you when I had the chance to but I had my reasons. And even if we never date, you're still going to be my best friend because you're the only guy I know who actually understands me and is willing to listen to me. Not only that, but you're the only person that can make me happy when I'm in an awful mood, like now. I'm happy that you're happy with Ashley but it doesn't make me any less jealous."

Then we played random questions and we started talking about the thoughts I have. And you have them too. Which is strange because of Ashley.


Anyways, I'm all jacked up on NyQuil.